Chasing Seasons
An observation by
Nichol Blair
I caught a glimpse
of her. She had been away so long. Lost. Abducted by depression and consumed by
fear. She had been attacked by time and suffocated by doubt. Empty without
motivation or inspiration; the disappointing truths remained. Exhausted. She
still ran.
See, she had been
chasing seasons.
Once her passions
were so strong; igniting wildfires. But it seemed as though her dreams had been
extinguished. She could reappoint the fabrications that she once fed herself
but she told me she didn’t have an appetite for them these days.
The seasons came and
went, all leaving their mark on her heart. She had changed. Resuscitated by
faith - still - she felt defeated. It seemed as though she didn’t know how to
live without the pain. One could argue that she brought it on herself but, she
would surely deny it. Misguided. She still ran.
Searching for
answers, she pressed on. She emerged every time missing pieces of her heart,
pieces of her mind, and pieces of her spirit. Discouraged. One could surmise
that her self-esteem was low having put herself through those seasons but
again, she would deny it. Broken. She wept.
Our seasons are simply our life experiences; some good and some not. Challenges and relationships that have burdened us. Dreams that we put on hold because life happened. Arguably, everyone experiences one or more of these observations throughout their lifetime. So my question to you is, are you chasing seasons? Because if you are, I'm here to tell you that it's okay. Life happens. Sometimes it's good and sometimes it's not. But when it's not, be sure to take time to recover. Recuperate from those negative experiences. Take time to heal and grow, and take what you've learned from those challenges and apply it in the future. Allow yourself to process your feelings as you move forward. Try your best not to let your negative experiences make you angry, bitter or mean. Proceed in life with kindness and an open mind, allowing your experiences to make you a better person. Evaluate the consequences - both positive and negative - of your decisions. Make them consciously. And we can't always decide what happens to us in this life, but we can most certainly be mindful of how we react to it. So be bold, be beautiful, be courageous, be encouraged, be honest, be mindful, be kind and be well!
Love & Peace
Niki B.
